Attack is part of my series titled Anxiety of Corvus which chronicles my complex relationship with Corvus, my corvine alter-ego who embodies my social anxiety.
This piece refers to my aggressive approach to deal with my social anxiety. I was confused and too ignorant to cope thus I turned to anger and hatred. I ended up hurting myself and others around me even my family. This is my apology.
stop looking at me
can’t breath
i’m sweating, shaking
panic attack
i want to fucking puke
what’s wrong with me?
i’m not angry
but anger seems to be
the only escape
and hatred seems to be
the only comfort
it’s not me but social anxiety
is choking me
...i’m sorry
can’t breath
i’m sweating, shaking
panic attack
i want to fucking puke
what’s wrong with me?
i’m not angry
but anger seems to be
the only escape
and hatred seems to be
the only comfort
it’s not me but social anxiety
is choking me
...i’m sorry
"Anxiety of Corvus", 2014, Solo Exhibition at Numthong Gallery, BKK, Thailand
